The roses have enjoyed the
Rain so much this year that
I’ve been slamming them all
May in the door, their drowsy
Petal-heavy necks bowing
To my screen door’s guillotine—
Deflowered once weekly and guilty
Of nothing more than growing.
Oh, it’s hard to grow isn’t it? Not
Tall, I mean. Or lost. Or old. No, these
Things aren’t hard, but they’re painful.
And we’ve all had the opportunity to
Suffer: hands bitten by the family
Dog, words exchanged during a fender-
Bender in the Arby’s parking lot, or
Perhaps something so small as giving
Away your heart, then sometime, at a later
Date, having it returned. This is of course
The moment (this last one, I mean) when
It becomes clear that every Fleetwood
Mac song was specifically written for you—
Yes, entire albums, and other things. What
Other things do I mean? Well, things like
Care. And self-care. And caring. And
When we actively care we begin to notice
Synchronicities, like how our friend Karen
Has the word “care” in her name, and though
We’ve been speaking her name aloud for
Decades we’ve somehow never heard it
From our own mouths. With our own ears.
The kind of growth where we start to see
Things we haven’t before, capable of
Feeling things we couldn’t—the type where,
In the lonely depths of mid-February
Our eyes open at 3:15 AM and, exhausted
From pain, for a moment—just a moment!—
We glimpse at the process of forgiveness.
Oh dog-bitten fingers! Oh tender, broken-
Hearted adults! Oh plastic fender-bendered
Bumpers, the estimate is $2,200. All
Painful! But back to the roses slamming
Their heads in the door. They make it seem
Almost too easy. Sweetly-scented hydras
Surrendering their surfeit of skulls—
Twenty-eight more, no thirty—safely
Knowing the heart is buried deep within
The watered, black soil, the sun glowing
Reliably, forever, far above any frost line,
While we, with sincerest intentions,
Attend to our indescribably human work—
Putting on shoes each morning, eating our
Breakfast, and closing the door behind us.
About Rose…
The Rose, drenched in rain’s embrace
Sways in a delicate dance of grace
But I, in my human plight and pain
Slam it’s petals with my heart’s disdain
Petal-heavy necks, weary and low,
Bowing to my door’s relentless blow
Deflowered weekly, a guilt I bear
For growing without fault nor care
Oh, growth is not measured by height
Or by getting lost in some endless night
It’s the pain that shapes us, makes us whole
The wounds we bear, the scars that toll
We’ve all tasted suffering’s bitter fruit
Hands bitten, words exchanged, disputes
Even the smallest act of giving away,
Leads to heartbreak, returned one day
In that moment, realization unfurls
Fleetwood Mac songs echo, for us, the pearls.
Every lyric resonates deep in our core
Reflecting our pathetic journey, forevermore
And what other things do I mean?
The essence of care, in actions unseen
When we care, we notice the signs
Synchronicities in life’s grand designs
In the depths of a lonely barely Spring night,
We awaken, weary from pain’s endless fight
But for a fleeting moment, forgiveness appears
A glimpse of solace, through our feeble tears
Oh, bitten fingers, broken hearts we nurse
Plastic bumpers, accidents we traverse
All painful trials we endure and bear,
As we navigate life’s burdensome snare
Yet the rose, teaches us a lesson profound,
Headfirst it surrenders, without a sound.
A delicate fragrant head, sweet and serene
Knowing its heart lies buried, unseen
Deep within the soil, watered and black
The sun above, never fading nor slack.
While we, with intentions pure and bright
Carry on with our daily human plight.
Putting on shoes, breakfast’s humble feast,
Closing the door behind, worries released
In the face of pain, we rise anew,
Inspired by a roses, its resilience, and view.
So, let us learn from Rose’s plight,
To bloom despite the storms of our fight
In our hearts, may forgiveness bloom,
As we journey through life’s endlessly tempestuous room
Rebecca, this is wild. Thank you. I’m touched.
You’re welcome